~zAi~

2007-01-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

my blog is dead .

so much has happened since schl reopen dunno when to strt. sec 4 le wor time to pull up my socks haz. ankle socks how pulll Zzz...

kayz so i;m liek trainning everiday now coz NAFa is like a few months away.... shyt. and prelim is juz a few weeks away. arghzz my world is crashing=(.

2006-12-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

hez totalli exhausted 2dae... wosh! its was like 4 plsu when my eng tution ended den yu hung jio me go his house dere to plae bball again =). guessed i was free and went loiie sat bus 13 to j8 and it took a frigging 1 hr. den a half and hour walk to der bbal court lols. reached dere at like 5.30?? haz ddint plae much but i guess my skills haben de-prove yet =). Nods.

got home at about 8pm.

zAI

someday u'll find der one special person who would take you breath away........
and tads today.

2006-12-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

nth much 2dae went for der english tution at bedok and went home wib bo jie. wasted like 1 and a half hour to get home. Fuck.

well i walked in de rain kinda getting emo after all tads happenning. some family problems yhe?nt sure how i'll be able to kope wib it.

zAi

was she realli staring at me?

2006-12-27T22:50:00.000+08:00

ouch. went for blodd test 2dae. mum dragged me there dunno for wad also. maybe wan to make sure i'm healthy bahz. =) yhe. and der nurse was like wondering whether i did sumthing wrong. * you know what* lahz. k nvm. i think i;m numb to pain loiee ddint even noe tad der nurse had poked my skin liao lols. =)

results in 2 days time.

zAI

how will i ever know the truth?

2006-12-25T00:53:00.000+08:00

uyay!!! haz its 12.30am now Merri x'mas!!! hahaz.. had supper b4 this. same place as usual lau pa sak hahaz satay again. yheppz kinda find to hang arnd =). but cldnt make it for darryl's church celebration urgh...=(. boss dun let...kaoz.

after tad went to esplanade to see der river view or wadeva haz. sister bugg me to go. -.-
den went orchard to see see. damn. super crowded got spray party somemore lols. i'm beginning to like de holidaez!!!

zAi

hearthrob.

2006-12-22T22:50:00.000+08:00

hmmmz ok.....so i went out 2dae to marina bay. got scolded by mum for going out too frequently. and i cant believe i promised to study 8hrs a day after playing de whole day 2dae!!! wtf.... i'm dead. but cant hellp it. must show her mahz so den can go out again. =)

went marina to bowl wib royston,andy,derek, eugene and gabriel. was a bit late lols. k i was VERI late haz. but still managed to bowl and pool. went home wib royston and eugene in cab. haz so ex siaz but knt help it. everione so tired liao haz so went wib it lors.

Haz. i won 2 pool games 2dae yay!!! tell me i'm a pro hahahaz.
and i sucked at bowling. -.- noob.

zAi

You'll be my right hand
and i'll be ur left....

2006-12-20T17:53:00.000+08:00

hmzz ddint had time to blog these daez was bz lah. lets strt wib der 2-4 chalet on last sundae haz.

Sundae-

haz so it was like kinda last minute and abit screwed up but anw nvm.alot of ppl came still even though some nt 2-4 and 1 is like totalli extra one lols. sum1 gf huhs?? i wonder whose...lols =P
so saw eugene koh again yay! he haben chnge one bit sia. but he bought his ps2 along tad was gd.if nt everione would be frigging bored while trapped in der chalet for like 8 hrs?? due to der f***king rain lah. NB. den most activities like need to cancel liaoz...andy one still got wet weather programme wtf? so gd. nxt year u plan again lahs!!! =)

royston was crazzi as usual haz....went to arcade for awhile den we had nite water bombing when most left lah. haz...all come shoot me nah bhey. all bulli me one. see i small size hao qi fu wth. we water bombed half naked lah so itchy. der grass got dunno wad bug . den i got home at 2 plus lols. coz b4 tad went to habe supper wib my boss and lady boss. Boss nagg at me again lah blah blah blah make me du lan. den next dae cldnt go out wib derek dey all to celebrate his belated b'dae sighz. i promised to make it up to him lah buy him a wallet, pencil box or sumthing. guess have to wait till this fridae have another outing wib royston and gang lols.maybe.

so i slacked at home on mondae coz i grounded. and i'm trying to bug my boss to let me go out wib dem on fridae. hopefulli he will 4get lah... den had my had some family problems on tuesday. sighz. shant reveal it lahz.make me sad onli. dun ask why also....juz have to sae it mad me look at life at anther perspective bahz. =(

heyz but had brkfaz wib bro ytd too. at mac's. half way thru still sae he wan go out have a smoke wtf? den ask me nt to follow him ??? i abit puzzled lehz. sum1 plz tell me wad to do??!!!! after tad went to amk central spec shop to get my new 'REALMADRID CLUB DE FUTBOL' specs!! cools. shall wear it onli during lessons bahz. if nt i think my eyes will abit tired one dunnno why .

guess tad sums up my weekend- BURNT. =) oh yhe. i think des shld drink more gatorade. give him more boost. X)

zAi

things to do before you die...

2006-12-17T11:13:00.000+08:00

Ytd...

met up wib aric, royston and eugene at northpoint at abt 10.30 lols....i was late lah pai sehy =( but eugene even more late den me wakakakz...wanted to buy der bbq stuff for 2daes chalet but sad we ddint noe wad to buy lah..so chaotic.. so in de end we went to suntec city carrefour or wadeva to buy der snacks onli lor. NB. so ex lah spent like 50 dollarr. fux man. my heart pain liao =X. haz....den went back to schl and plaed bball in jeans. was too tired to move tads why my reaction so slow loiie.

we had field cooking for dinner haz. instant noodles,egg and harshbrown. aric got me to do his tuition a maths hmwrk for me and he bought me 3 bandung. Yay! thx dude. =) dinner was fun lols. after tad me royston and aric went to kill *ka chua* lols... take zippo spray den light der *ka chua* hasz so fanni. kay we got sadistic lah =P. but later super unlucky some old man on night duty caught us den we went to hid behind der air-con ventilators on der slope den he found us still threaten to cor police somemore. Must thk aric sia if nt we realli die. he told der uncle he droppped his handphone waakakakz. den der uncle stupi stupid believe him =.=

headed home at 10 pm, den had supper. =)

zAi

2006-12-15T21:19:00.000+08:00

kaoz 2dae si bhey du lan. went to der dental clinic near jubille 2dae @ 2pm. sux lah, go dere ask der dentist help me clean teeth den make my gums bleed instead super pain. den keep pulling my mouth kaoz feels like its totaali numb lah, numb and also pain?? louzy dentist next time dun go dere liao. somemore 65$ !!! pay so ex juz to make my gums bleed. ediot.

haiz den nvm, after tad went shop around again bought 2 shirts Zzzz. 2mrrw still need go buy bbq stuff for 2-4 chalet.haiz b'z holidaez. =(

zAi

sound of ur dreamz

2006-12-14T18:32:00.000+08:00

Saw her 2dae again. der more i think about it der more sure i am of this feeling.

zAi

2006-12-13T19:29:00.000+08:00

had fun 2dae. went to plaz sing wib weiming. de rest all said dey cldnt make it so well, anw........yhep we met at plaza sing at about 2pm hahaz....were an hour late ,supposed to have met at 1pm but weiming overslept wakakkaz. we wanted to watch 4.05pm show of ERAGOn so i went to buy tickets 1st lucky got quite gd seats lahhh.......if nt i think weiming will K.O me liaoz. =)

since was earli we went zone-x plae arcade lah den sun bian go pc bunk see the chio bu cashier weiming was toking about lols....den he ask me go buy A-cashcard from der cashier also wth.-.-
k nvm nt my type also.
plaed all those usual stuff lah....time crisis 2(i think i was better den wm haahhz),house of dead 4(plae to boss level si qiao qiao liao), datona ( i suKed). den still got plae der stupid marvel v.s capcom game lah.i hate tad lor. ppl anhw wack also can win, ****!

den weiming wanted to buy long johns and der jap snack balls (wadeva u call it) den he wanted to smuggle, see me got bag den put in my bag lors. my bag so small den der ketchup sauce all spill in my bag si bhey dirty tmd2. thinking about it makes me mad. well nvm, washing my bag now haaz. nvm.

after tad went home from serangoon after accompanying weiming to der bus interchange. waited for the taxi in de rain as i was lazi of taking bus back myself -.-. Uncle veri gd $10.10 dollar he charge me 10 dollar onli sooo gd..... Thx uncle!Uncle u rox sia!

got home at 7 decide to go 7-11 to buy newpaper,mentos and green tea. yhepz tad about all 2dae frigging tired now....-yawnz-

zAi

tO win Or Die........

2006-12-12T21:17:00.000+08:00

kayz, so i admit tad i did something realli stupid today. $@#$%^(! -.-

2006-12-10T22:11:00.000+08:00

did nothing much 2dae. watch tv. sleep. plae xbox.
den went to ubi dere to see cars. My boss decided to buy new car, i also dunno why. toyota camry somemore so frigging ex. ok wadeva nt my prob also.

sighz....promised i wld study 2morrow onwards....-crap- haiz........

zAi

2006-12-09T11:10:00.000+08:00

haz.....got home late yeaterdae.....and could only blog in the morning. ytd went raffles city to buy my addidas shoe coz dey open until midnight mah den i went at 11pm lors hahaz.....der shoe white white one and cost a bomb lah....139$$!!! i think i no need take my this month allowance liao....can go survive on bread liaoz........of coz tio nagged by my boss again but who cares =X.

the salesman veri nice, i think my jie got diao dao by him lols.... -pui-
den after tad went lau pa sak to eat satay lah.......got home at like 2 am super sleepy.......
yts was jus anther late night shopping day =P. well at least X'mas is rnd der corner which means more shopping lahz.....nth else fun to do le .

hey, n i'm strting to like der holidaes =)

zAi

BanZAi!!!

2006-12-07T17:01:00.000+08:00

coolll....juz realised after 4 days at camp i lost like 3 kg.......wtf...no wonder i like so weak now lols....kayz, muz get back my energy siaz.

sighz, still got der eng tuition going on at east coast park. c i so hrdwrking, studying wib bojie somemore Zzz....must wrk hard since o's next year liao i guess i dun have time right now to think about complicated matters le bahz....end up i'll be der one getting hurt haiz....

at about 6 went to schl to pass my junior his shoebag which he left in der store ai yoz...hmmmmmm after tad went amk central to make new specs---black colour one. den got a haircut again coz der previous barber totalli screwed it up. Got bored and went to buy somemore clothes....finnali have my bball shorts le yay!...some bengs barged in der shop lah nah bhey dey think i scred ah tmd2...kept diaooing dem dun give a ****.

we'v crossed our paths many times,
and i'm strting to regret
that i haven told u wad i shld had said to you.

2006-12-05T23:43:00.000+08:00

Tried the personality test teng asked me to do :

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.You are feeling very vulnerable at this time. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction - business wise, private-life wise, everything. You need some emotional security and an environment which could possibly provide fewer problems, but the way you are feeling you can't be bothered even to make the effort.Compromise is the name of the game at this time and it is the only way you can avoid being deprived of the love and affection you so rightly deserve -so soften up a little, be flexible.Nobody seems to understand you at this moment for everything you suggest or do seems to be taken up the wrong way. All of this misunderstanding is leading to anxiety and stress. The situation naturally is not as you would like it to be - you feel that you are being treated most unfairly and that trust, affection and understanding are being withheld from you and that you are being treated with a demeaning lack of consideration. You consider yourself being denied the appreciation essential to your well being and self-esteem and that there is nothing you can do about it. You feel that whatever you try to do to change the situation, you are getting nowhere fast. You would really like to get away from it all but can't find the energy or the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

2006-12-05T19:18:00.000+08:00

its the 2nd dae since break camp and i'm beginning to feel the after-effect. lethargic and walked around like zombie todae hahaz nvm. Well, erm.....went schl at 11 pm 2dae to do some cca stuff nth much lah juz do some sai kang work again lorss....got me, weesiang,waye and zhi an all the rest all pang sey. Ai yah wadeva heck care dem le lah. piss me off onli when i think more of it. 2dae mdm Ng veri der gd treat the 4 of us to chicken rice at the kopitiam =). Guess they missed out tad. spent there like from 12 noon to 4 pm lors lols. abit siao rite?? loiie.

we chatted alot lah about cca,schl and some other stuffs. Got to learn alot of unknown secrets lah , which is kept only among the five of us =p. hmzz.... we kinda know which are the teachers leaving next year sad. hahz den dey still sae i outstanding NCO in camp wakakakz.. hahaz. Thank you. Thank you. Proud to be that yhepz. Guessed i accomplished alot of stuff this holidae ddint waste it.
I know lim pheh veri pro no need sae lah =).

hmzz...den i got bored. den asked waye and wee siang wan go watch movie or not lors. mdm and zhi an left 1st liao by den. got to J8 at about 4.20pm. see here see there den decided watch Deck The HAlls lah coz onli movie can buy and watch immediately mahz......went into cinema and saw alot small children lols. si bhey noisy. got one small gurl behind me make so much noise lols den wee siang still say cute hahaz.

All in all the show can be described only by one word: "CRAPPY" hahaz. der ending si bhey xia lan lols i watch le wan vomit blood liao. go watch it if u wan see how crappy it is. =.= some thing about some fat guy wan deco his house with christmas lights untl can be seen from space hahaz den realli did lah....suPer Exagerated lors hahaz......sHoooo KUA ZHANG. waste my 7 dollars make me du lan. somemore still hai me owe waye 2 dollars lols. After tad got bored and walked back schl through the private housing dere lahz walk in rain somemore.

Going sleep soon. still not enuf energy sia still can feel cramps in my legs. maybe heal liao den go plae bball again baghz....

一开始，我们就没认真过。。。

2006-12-05T00:54:00.000+08:00

Juz got back from camp. left civilisation for 4 daes lols ANd i FOund out one bad thing. I think i frigging lost der camera....o Shyt! Sis gonna killl me liao lah.

nvm sleep 1st den sae lah i think i'll srest fir 2 daes le bah....shirt stink like siiao. NB.

tIRED also liao lah. whole body aching Zzzz. went camp do sai kang onli. Junior and officers treat me like maid like tad but also knt help it mah....some bl00dy asshole push logistic stuffs to me ****!

went to pulau ubin on third day....ddint bathe and stinked had powder bath instead. haiz slept 12 hours onli for der 4 daes of camp so poor thing Zzz. den when break camp liao immediately go mac's eat and bathed in school alone lols. so cool. =)

Hmzz. i think there is only one thing that the camp taught me:

To appreciate my bed and mac's even more.

i juz pretended not to see you.

2006-11-30T21:27:00.000+08:00

2morrow camp.

HOW FUn!!!

*pUi-*

2006-11-27T22:39:00.000+08:00

Since u don care, i also dun care larhs. NAh Bhey.

2006-11-26T22:11:00.000+08:00

i seriously think that i cant realli get along wib my bro & sis anymore. arguments one after anther......i guess its time i let it all out.

YouR stupid Reasons.

2006-11-24T23:47:00.000+08:00

now i know it hurts, to lie to yourself.

2006-11-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

So nite bball as usual.....ok so it was sooo last minute hahaz. well nvm. i ddi some tupid stuff 2dae hung also. any how throw ball den both of us throw ball den hit 2 gurls' head Zzz i think my one more pain lah i ike throw so far den suay suay hit der black shirt one Zzz. den i tot she going cor her sisters come wack me Zzz. so in de end ddint =P. Got home at 11pm tio naaged by my 'boss' again. 'boss' sae wadeva thing,juz 'yes,yes,yes' can liaoz Zzz. well yhepz, 2morrow need go schl do work hahaz maybe will buy my addidas shoe den. yawnz might go for a morning jog to macritchie reservoir 2morrow. Its good to be sentimental some times.......

I dun realli deserve anything.......

2006-11-23T23:55:00.000+08:00

nooooooo MAg yeong and kenny out of supeertarz liaozz.....sad k nvm still got revival round yayz.=)

2006-11-22T18:55:00.000+08:00

CHAo JI S~uberstar 2nite....
MAG YEONG ROX!w0Ots!

2006-11-22T18:08:00.000+08:00

YESTERDAY/ /YADRETSEY
kayzz so err.......ytd went to vivocity wib hung,his god sis and her fren,zoe. haz was to meet at bishan mrt station at 11 lols. but when i reached dere saw hung and his god sis waiting dere liao. make me feel like i'm late lols.but zor was even more late lorrr =P. den realised i was de onli one wearing sandles and white beach shorts. haz de others all wear jeans loiee i;m so xtra lah. i think i tot i going sentosa lahz hahaz. kayz next time go out sure wear jeans liao. my jeans still getting tailored lols so long ...

well, we watched casino royale lahz. 1.15 pm show. den zoe and grace all wanted go shoppping so we tagged along lor. wanted buy addidas shoe too bad onli bought 30 plus dollar wib me *pathetic*. My lao Ba haben pay me yet X). hey it was fun lah, but go 2 siiao za borhs Zzzz....hope dey nt reading, suay suay link until here den i sure end up like this liao ----> X.X

movie wad gd. der female lead nt bad. and der bad guy also so cool lah. use some rope cum hammer thing to torture james bond so fanni.he go hoot bond's poor little ball balLs. guess tad woke me up hahahz.k i was sleeping through der moviie.

den after tad went to walk around again. look here look dere also nth much to see.den went harbourfront centre but end up ddint go to sentosa maybe coz late liao bah and i was rushing home. 6pm like tad we say buai buai den me and hung go sit taxi go home liao while we ps dem dey go sit MRT Lols..i'm mean.

taxi uncle keep on toking kok blah blah blah." u noe now 5-8 got xtra 2$ taxii fare rite, dere u see *-points at the screen-*."
F!.u!.C!K!. i ddint noe tadd.....den end up i spent like 18.60 dollar juz to go home from harbourfront. SO I GOT RIPPED OFF lahz......
dropped hung at j8.

TODAY/ /YADOT

sheesh.....2dae was supposed to plAe badminton wib andy dey all but SAd lah....i got eng tuition,fly until east coast park dere some more.... next time plae again wib u all bah.ddint make it for der 2pm badminton =(

after tadd got bored....went to AMK central buy some clothes la la la......kinda cool lor. bought a brown converse bag. all paid by muai mum. haz ddint need to pay a single cent. total 97.50 dollar after discount de auntie so gdd. if i pay my pocket sure break one big hole. muahhahaz.

我们还是朋友吧。

zAi

2006-11-21T01:42:00.000+08:00

guess wad my lucky number 2dae is 33. and its all quek's planning. haz 2dae went chalet.
Afternoon was making my IC loiee so mani ppl cor dere ask sae veri little ppl den go dere....woah so mani ...long queue sia.....well need wait schl reopen den can get Zzz..

went to chalet at about 4pm, so in de end der chalet wasnt totali free still gto 1 dollar admission fee diiaoz

slacked dere,plaed ps2,went arcade Zzz den walk walk......was rainning heavily when i got dere.......SO suAY 2dae.....Tmd2 keep getting played by teng dey all Zzz....hahaz welll it was fun. =P

haiz den went for dinner. we got bored and wanted play some disgusting game lah. der person who hits der lucky number gets to drink der mixture of digusting soup tad was left over from jun wei. TMD2, i itchy hand go buy french fries den si roysten go put chicken and chili. well i HIt der lucky number 33 and i tried to escape hahaz.....sipped some of der digusting mixture and almost vomitted sia. ZZz den i finalli realised i tio fooled by them.-.-

sadly cldnt stay overnite, my dad ddint allow....SAD. well u must obey wad der boss saes Zzz.

Kayz, so roysten is crazii.......stupid chilli, i almost choked.

BacKsTabbed & bleeding.....

2006-11-19T21:50:00.000+08:00

we haben been toking so i guessed it juz ends here .

我们怎么了?

2006-11-19T09:56:00.000+08:00

my hair is long liaoz going for a shave......Zzzz
maybe go be MOnk liao lols....jkjk =P
next tue going out wib hung and his god sis to vivo hmzz....
i wonder how she is like? Zzz hung told me not to have high hopes lols.......

zaI

2006-11-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

went badminton wib andy dey all 2dae at about 2 lols....me and gaoyi were der 1st ones to turn up hahaz and andy was late =P. ddint realli noe junying and gaoyi would come lols think maybe is hung cor dem come one bah....suked in badminton and yu hung so pro lah must admit coz i keep corrling him lo5er when i am der one getting thrashed lols.....=P -thick skin- mahz.

well after tadd went to j8 wib andiz to see converse bag.....den we went take some computer stuff at der mrt station Zzz den some galz doing CIP beg us buy some pen Zzz... tried to run awae but got cuaght Zzz den had to buy one. gave her 10$ den she sae she no change since i rushing den i juz ask her gibe me 5 pens zzz.....diiao. k she is chio lah =P

went to der new MAc's at ang mo kio dere wib my LaO Gorz AND found out their machine spoil or sumthing den NO MILKSHAKE!!! arghZZ !@##@!~@#!!

myy BAgg!!
myy 10$ !!!

2006-11-13T23:32:00.000+08:00

yheppp finalli de first post in muaii blog since holidaez been bz lah....haizz so mani things pop out need do mah....kaoz. c der pile of maths wrk-shits den think of alice long den i no mood to do anything le. hazz den will go out plae. lazzz. 1st week of holidae all remedials lahzzz...den remedial den hmwrk den basketball den hmwrk Zzz.....

been hanging out at liu's basketball court to plae lah wa lan. all der schl team si bhey pro. elbow here and dere den use their backside push ppl. Zzz make me du lan. **** .haz anther long holidaeee...

at least free and easy lah can go out anytime=)

i'v 4gotten u..
erased from de depths of my heart.

2006-11-03T23:00:00.000+08:00

hoho. my di asked me to blog. so here i am.
all i know is that my dearest di,
zai went to play bball today. and got wetwetwet.
hope he had fun. (x
haha. oh well, take care di. (:

<3

2006-11-01T23:03:00.000+08:00

INVASION!

haha. i'm just bored. ;p
anyw di, SMILE! (:

<3

2006-10-30T21:17:00.000+08:00

arghhz o level chinese finalli over le dun wan think abt it anymore hahazz.........well dere are still remedial lessons in this first week of holidae and hmwk piling up again lah shetz....o well got like anther 2 mnths to do mah relax boiie.......

went to bishan cc dere to plae wib yu hung dey all.......met some new frens again at de bball court hahahz.........guess bball brings ppl together =P .........some siao group of ppl playing siao bball at de other half of de court. its like 20 over ppl hugging onto 1 small ball balll hhaaz. played a few matches,scrapped my kneee badly, did some crazi stunts andd andd err....i think i was on steriods hahaz accuracy si bhey high 2dae =P kay lah i abit bhb lahz..... den met 2 new frens from dunno wad schl think was sumthing Fu sec schl lah 4got.......one 18 and de other 16 year old.....still sae dey sec 2 pian who lah! hazz am i tad pro meh......dey tot i schl team hahaz lols like reall........den de other ppl i plae wib are shen tong liao lah............well i think i improved in my bball skills lah........bro u muz agree lah knt deny mahz, ITS A FACT! kay i being bhb wib my bball again opps XD.

forget us........
forget everithing tadd had happened....

zAi

2006-10-27T19:27:00.000+08:00

还记得吗？？

三年前的约定。。。

七年后的那天。。。

十年的等待。。。

这已经不存在我。

忘了痛苦，，

2006-10-27T07:54:00.000+08:00

haiz been a realli bad dae ytd for mani of us coz of the f***king piece of result slip.siian nt been doing well again, well i guess there are both extremes in my class ppl who do veri well and people who dont' well....i belong to the second group sighz........prepare so much le still come out like tad Zzz maybe i'm expecting too much from myself and shld juz 4get about everithing and concentrate on o's chinese. haz i'll be ready to get screwed by my dad again haz=) but who cares anw....

schl ended and it seems so hard to leave coz of all the 3 years of memories i habe so far lahzzz well at least i met alot more new frens ppl who i tot i neba knew and ppl whom i still know...holidaez piled with paperwork i guess i will strt doing it in dec meanwhile i'll juz go out and plae le....

hate holidaez..... who eva said there were holidaes in our schlll?? = . =

drifting apart...

zAi

2006-10-16T19:05:00.000+08:00

haiz stupid haze...no 1 plae bball loiee sian haz hopefully by this sat can see clear skies again well de skies are grey....for now. i guess wad hurt most is de parting ......Zzz. maybe i juz dun fit in......

soRry; thankyou for everithing.......

2006-10-14T23:15:00.000+08:00

I guess i shld be the one who's sorry......

sorry.....my badd
but i know the wounds would neva heal..

zAi

2006-10-13T22:17:00.000+08:00

sighzz........was feelng veri down 2dae dunno why maybe coz i quarrled wib my sister Zzz....realli wished i cld 4give my self for being so......haix nvm....been pondering wad to do during de holidaez lols siian guess i will stick to bballing everidae bahz 2mrrw maybe going wib my bro to bball court plae to 4get de unhappy thoughts........for awhile.

I'v thought it through and i think i'm feeling the distance between me and any1 close around seems to be drifting apart maybe everi1 had thier own stuff to do after exams come to think of it i seem to have so much to do but no mood to do any......perhaps coz i hav few zhi xin hao youss haizz.

....de skoldaes drawing to an end and i guess we wld spent lesser time wib one another liao haizzz.....hope still can go out wib me old buddies somedae......guess in this year there were both happy and sad memories, fanni memories and crazii memories but i guess is just a close of a chapter in muai life.....dun realli feel like i belong liaoZzz haiz maybe coz of the exam-lag hhaaz.......cant realli make myself smile lately dunno why lols......guess der diff between a moment of saddness and happiness is just one fine line =(
cant realli explain things out coz i think i'm juz bad with words...maybe tadds why people misunderstand me and find myself in bad terms with them haiz.....
sry guys, i'v been such a bad fren and a fool and sorry for being so irritating and annoying sighz...
dmn i'm being emo again haizz juz cant help it yhe?

When light fades
and skies go grey,
de God Forsaken cHild walks alone.......

an emptiness in me.....

a longing for something.....

2006-10-09T14:46:00.000+08:00

lols juz before geog test shaun told me a veri intersting thing lols quite funn actualli dunno wheether it was all a coincidence or not lols sharing wib u yar all lols help yar all relieve stress =)

Think of the first thing that comes to you mind for each step =)...

1) think of the 4th letter of the alphabet series

2)Think of a country which starts with the letter

3) Using the last letter of the Country's name think of an animal

4) Think of a fruit, using the last letter of the animal u thought of =)
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hmzzz....were u thinking of a kangaroo eating an orange in Denmark lols???
well if not, den you too smart to think of it liao lah hahaz =D

Gd LUck!!!! 3 daez more to de end of all these crap

zAI

2006-10-08T09:55:00.000+08:00

i know its exam week yhe shldt blog blahz...but cant help it haiz.....2mani things to remember liao think chem going to be a killer omg lahhz....so mani things to remmeber arghzz.....
i guess i will think of sumthing to forget everithing.....=X

hands only...
zAi

2006-09-30T19:50:00.000+08:00

Sum1 spoilt muai bloddy dae 2dae siazz all coz muai fren $ got stolen during phy remedial break

......and we 2 suspect who it is, somemore ish from PB der!! but de cher cant do anything about it sae no evidence arghz!!!! why like tadd one....i'm seriously thinking of confronting der theif one mondae.....bash him until he admit tmd2..... filth of society own fren oso wan steal.....
i 'm doubting if i shld trust him again haizzz siiian.......i feel so useless for not being to help muuai fren catch der thief haizz.......what shld i do Zzz.

after remedial realli got damn pissed Zzz asked jie wad i shld do haizzz........ tried mugging at student lounge bit cldnt seem to concentrate Zzz...plaed bball from 3 to 6 after tadd....guessed it gout me over the case for awhile.....i was juz pinning all my anger on de ball =(
sad.....

When i finallie see your true colours.......

zAi

2006-09-27T21:51:00.000+08:00

assmbli suked......tupid mooncakes balh blah blah i slept de entire way lols yay!!!

well yhe......bballed as usual sprained my finger abit lols..so mani ppl ddint get the ball 2 mani times lols.......i guess i'll stick to defence and dribbling hahazz siiian ........

hey at least i get to slack in class for de whole daez zzz.......
den after schl went study wib diz hahaz.........at first went CO room study lols... coz i tot leong wont scold lols.......well in de end she came in den chase us out lols......den hai dao teng get nagged =( sry dude.

got home at 6 zzz tired but still need study haizz......

zAI

2006-09-26T17:41:00.000+08:00

much happened 2dae i guess both fun and bad =(

well, er we ddint had der boring morning chinese lesson worx lols i guess tad gd=P
an den hmzz we had elect histry and i tio kp by govin again siannz......ask me sit infront i nt doing anythign wrong den suddenli sae i nt readding her stupid notes =.= wadebba S***s.....

yhe den got Chem spa i guess i screwed it up all over again dortx and got some stupid smellZzz smelly pui* lols guess i screwed it all up coz i ddint read jie's msg hahaz ai yoh so suayyy.....read it after der test hahaz.....den ehhh was msging her de whole dae for fun =D.

Den at english lesson, alot ppl neba do summary den all got chased out of class lols. slacked out side lols who carezz.....den hong send me der file lols den work done liao bleahzz.......but i stayed outside until last 3 min before recess hahhazzz =P no need stay in class so borringzz....come in awhile recess le wakakkaz gd timing ehz?

slept at physics lesson, lol as usual hahaz. got woken up by quay lols xia shi ren....Zzz den continued sleeping =P den make me help him hold wire do some tupid wave demonstration dortxxx.....der bell rang lols and i jumped off my sit and stood up lols....i think i going a bit kuku sok diao liao nowadeazz den quay sae i "上课像条虫，下课像条龙。。。" den sae no wonder my phy result like shyt siannz.......tmd ...well who carez wad he sayz.....

yar den some toots dunno why plae with water balloon went to toilet during ss lesson den come out see one big orange water ballon roll down der stairs and landed right at my feet lols lucky ddint break if not i going screw those ppl heads off
lolsZzz and some one's gd idea bring it back to class where crazzii yuesheng go stamp on it make our class door so wet lols........well it was fun =X....

i'll do everything my way.......
Dun carezzzzz..

zAI

2006-09-25T17:20:00.000+08:00

sianzz....2dae ended with sum1 kping us......so much things capped up in my head guess i'll write it all down to make me fell better bahz...

hmz......well dunno why i foresaw 2dae was going be a bad dae hahaz.....strted with my broken button den geog test and my mind was totally blank and den at de end of de dae we got scolded and .........and ......haiz.......nvm.

well ehh....2dae ish a sleepy dae as usual wib all the rain lols made me wan sleep even more.....well i have my ways of sleeping in class lols.........guess nearing exams tadd why so mani ppl ka*booming* now hahahaz.....Free period during h.chinese lesson and did nth but practiced drawing lols......well it suxed and i burnt it=P

Kept jixiiaoing Y.H lols so fanniz......and Yue.Bao with his koky jokes -.- english lesson was borring lols........tad why we laughed at his cold jokes lols......sumthing about superman hahaz and some racist one =X knt share later tio sued =(

Zzzz den after tadd we gotta stay back and tio lectured haizzz......sumthing about we telling v.p no teacher and den i think she went scold oh haizz.....den now we become de chu qi tong........5 ppl got called out den she personally lecture dem sianz.........den J dunno why break down haizz...guess everyone has their soft spot Zzzz. i think i got 6th sense, he come in i noe he on verge of breaking liao....eyes red red, still sae he ok when i ask him......-.-.
well i'm nt gd at consoling ppl sry =X......i'm bad with words i guess.....

its ok to let it all out once in de while bahz.....=(
people who appear strong but are bleeding inside, a glass that's hard but brittle..........

AND itsnot his fault or any other at all lor =.=......... i heard oh cried tooo....

these walls i've built around me........
bleeding inside......

zAi

2006-09-22T20:16:00.000+08:00

omgz.......faint* d-dae drawing near liao........its time for all of us to go full throttle leee sobxx =(

hahazz.......i went kuku dunno why suddenli so hrdwrking.......maybe coz of some extra boost hhaaz wadebbaa.....

Mugging is bad for health.......proven by PRof ZaI himself XD

zAi

2006-09-19T22:05:00.000+08:00

blah blah blah......everione mugging liaow siazz i think i just touched derr cover of my books onli sianss......=( i think i still in holidae mood omgg.... hahaz guess need jiayous.......everione work hard bahzzz.....after end of year i think its end of our miserable lives liao =).......

i guess i'm stil tryin to figure my way out of all these mess sianz.....wadeva.....dunch care about these complicated stuff liao.......well on de bright side.........i'm free after EOY's bleahz........

stoopid huey jeen up to his lame jokes again hahazzz.....but we got our places changed again lols....sit beside him dm fun =D

Afraid to be too trusting,
tadd it'd hurt again ...

zAi

2006-09-17T16:34:00.000+08:00

er......ehhh aghhz dunno how strt lah.ok just tok about ytd yhe? went out at nite to suntec city see see lols....like so super guarded omggg....de police need be dere 24/7 lols i think dey dm shack liaoz =D......borringg it's like 11.30 pm when we left to wen out eat.......ate at der lau pa sak dere den walked around deee city see see lors...... until it was 2.30 sm in de morning lols ****ing hell....i felt like sleep walking hhaazz..... habing late nitez again hahaz.....no wonder i sleep in schll so muchhh....

if onli we could all be tadd gdd........

zAi

2006-09-14T22:43:00.000+08:00

well erm, i slept well in schl i guess hhaaz slept most of de time if not i'm daydreaming again hhaaaz......spent 1 hr kept playing with my pen during ss duno for wadd and wad chia tot ddint go into my head......boriing.......
hazz so mani 'cher on m.c 2dae pang and long nt here so no hmwrk=break yhezz!! CHeers* =D. both their lesson sorta was like a free period xept we hadd to do an essay on marriage without having children... which i wrote *crap* =)....... worst peice of essay i've eva written hahaz.....

den after de schl end liaoozz saw johnny dey all watching movie so i joinged in see.....lols. De movie was "American haunting" i think but it totally suked...ddint understand wad happenedning at all tadd why i found it not scary hhaaz.....but john got freaked out hahaz coz one of de char name also called john.....de ghost oso nt scary one bleahz..... lousy ;D . USA ghost movie so booringg, i think jap and korea one still rox =D. got time let u'all see haaz. SOLID.

well, guess ain in gd term wiht my sis now hhaaz........first my bro now my sis wth..hahaz nvm.....daoing each other i guess......=( siianz guess i'm gonna have anther bad nite....haiz think i beta go sleep liao....... late liaozz . C Yar......

There's got to be more to life
than chasing empty dreams....

zAi

2006-09-13T22:09:00.000+08:00

guess been having late nites again,been sleeping around during lessons againz haix...perhapps tadd why my seat got changed again......now i sit directly in front of the teacher again !@#$%^&*&^%$ guess coz i was labelled weak(dumb) and need to sit beside someone smarter(sum1 like a.chew yhe buddy?) yhe rite but i'm beside k.guan.omg..... i didnt noe i wass tadd bad....sianzz...guess i totally sux in this class.... hahaz guess even he ish beta den me....=)
but at least i'm betta den sum1 lols......

haiz....den dere wasnt assembly so we took de time to take clas photo lols wib wang and quay since dey sort of de form 'cher of our class hhaaz.....took quite alot photos dunno how mani( ddint bother to count bleahzx)....hey and b4 yar noe it wang strts shwoing us some kool videos hahaz .....he showed us a ipod nano ad which rox to de core......ahazz i hope i habe one hhaazz......(diz buy for me =P jkjk.....)

yhe and ppl are starting to sell hair clips in our schl liiao...hahaz dunno for wadd siazz......guess its fanni lols......a boy schl selling hair clips hahaz guess tads forr during hair check to use derr bahzzz lols. PPL go buy de clips on de daees dere are hair checks, buy fer ur gals,mums,sisters grandmas and whoeva lah =P
while stocks last lah lols..........

Jokers in de hOuse XD. i'm koking again, yhe!

running in circles,
and look where we are now..........

zAi

2006-09-12T22:40:00.000+08:00

lolz reached home at 5 plus todae...totally flushed den went to listen to songs.....found anther nice band lols savage agrden simply rocks...though de songs abit long ago lah lols but gd music is gd music. like thiss sonngg...

Crash and Burn-Savage Garden

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned it's back on you

Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart

I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you

It's hard to find relieve and people can be so cold

When darkness is upon your door

And you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call

If you jump

I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

When you feel all alone And a loyal friend is hard to find

You're caught in a one way street

With the monsters in your head

When hopes and dreams are far away and

You feel like you can't face they day

Let me be the one you call

If you jump

I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

Because there has always been heartache and pain

And when it's over you'll breathe again

You'll breath again

When you feel all alone

And the world has turned its back on you

Give me a moment please

To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call

If you jump I'll break your fall

Lift you up and fly away with you into the night

If you need to fall apart

I can mend a broken heart

If you need to crash then crash and burn

You're not alone

this is all I wanna sae...
i realli miss yar and all..

zAI

2006-09-11T17:28:00.000+08:00

bleddy hellz.....how come knt go msn arghzz...sianz gues i'll stick to meebo lols.......XD
nth much to do juz did de dumb ss essay chia gave us der sianzz...1st dae of schl of Term4 turned out all rite i guess..... nth much to sae blahz..........wad a boring start
i'm going church!!! lolz........seriously not =)

Ne!w SonG i found againzz...

A Million Years-Teddy Greiger

caught up in what's in

caught up in the things that everyone wants

caught up in what's out

caught up in the things that you could do without

well what if i was one of them

don't let me be

well if i live for a million years

i would be right there

to catch your tears

will you get over it this time

and is this the last time

on this night we breathe air

what makes it so different

what makes you not care

well i wish that we could be the same

and i wish that you could give up this game

don't want to be one of them

don't let me be

well if i live for a million years

i would be right there to catch your tears

will you get over it this time

and is this the last time

will you say goodbye before you leave

will you say goodnight just one more time

please will you call my phone out of regret

and will you love again with other than me,

other than me

and will you speak of me

with other than me

and will you remember me

will you remember me

well if i live for a million years

i would be right there to catch your tears

will you get over it this time

and is this the last time is this the last time

oh, is this the last time,

my dear oh, is this the last time

yeah, is this the last time my, dear oh,

is this the last time is this the last time,

my dear is this the last time

i think it's the last time for us

Playing de guessing Game...

zAi

2006-09-10T16:42:00.000+08:00

lolz ytd nite went out for dinner lolz at "tian tian huo guo" sumwhere at bugis lah..
lolz and de english translation ish "Happy Pay steamboat" lolz wth man hhaaz but guess it was delicious and ex. come to think of it kinda fanni when bro went into de wrong toilet lolz.. coz it wrote dere "angelz" hahaz he saw my sis go in den still follow her lolz.....and i think i shouted at bro lolz den de whole restaurant can hear me hahazz.
i think the entire table dere laughed like siao gin nahz lols.....den the guy infront of bro with a kok hairdo stared at him =P so fanni siazzz....

well aftter tad went orchard road to see de new flowers put dere lols..for show niax coz of de bleddy event thingy.....IMF i think..... act niaz......got home at 12 am plus like tad totally worn out =X.... been habing late nites dunno whether 2morrow will be late for schl or not sia.....

lolz and ytd went for de paintball thingy quite fun lah lost 2 won 1 hhaz cldnt get to plae withn-air des team lah sianz....if not more fun....XD got 2 bruises from de bleddy kailun tmd2...shoot my hand lolz but i think i bombarded darius lolzzz......he got it pretty bad =P.......lolz ddint see darryl hahaz....kaixuan sae he got sore eye lolz....guess he cldnt aim with just one eye lolz... jkjk hope he gets well.
lols i think he tried to psycho me into joining his church at boat quay lolz....haix....considering it bah......guess i'll join church when i feel i realli neeed to =D

I won hesitate no more...
no more...
it cannot wait, i'm sure.
There's no need to complicate,
our time is short,
its fate....

zAi

2006-09-07T16:23:00.000+08:00

7 hrs and wait errr 40 min to go before i turn 15 bah......yhe everione's getting old hahax.... guess my best b'dae wish wld to go back back to before in pri schl bah haiz......guess its too late and we'r getting too old liaoz.... =(

finallie decided not to worry my life away liao.......sum stupid tot yhe lols..... sume crap resolution wakkakaz... well anw nth much to write le look 4ward to de paintball thing.....guess i won be able to sleep 2morrow nite....... =X

i wun worry my life away...

zAi

2006-09-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

hahax...been feeling beta lately eva since been sleeping for the past few daez lah lols.....suddenli so lazii hahax dun wan do anything.....lols
well, bought a new pair of poseur black shoe lah=P 18 dollar niax =) sho happi
hmzzz..maybe 2morrow go make muai new specs lah and buy new converse bag since all like wan spoil not spoil like tad (bu san bu si) lols XD

well tads about it.

so much for de perfect holidae..........=(

zAi

2006-09-03T13:38:00.000+08:00

to startt off teachers dae celebration was plainn boring untill b.chia showed up in the skit acting as a 'toot' and 'siao' zabo from st nics lols....guess tadd kept the crowd up and running lols.....
felt badd ddint went back to pri schl....maybe coz all muai veri der gd frenx all not going =( guess all dee teachers shld have 4gotten liaowx been 3 years since i eva went back sianx...need to reflect on my self dunch wad i'm thinking these daez. qurrelled wib my bro haix.....almost got into a fight wib him sian.......but its norm for siblings to quarrel once in a while ritex?? =X dunno how to face him again.......guess it'll be awkward like tad when we'r living under de same roof lorx....haix....

nebamind 4get abt tadd liao.....look 4ward to the paintball thingy bah........still got marcus tad clown on my team =) though he onli sec 2 lah but i guess he as siao and fanni as shaun XD. Needa fite with some ballz =) hope'll win yhe....hope lah not must win lah......ever1 muz try to thrash ******* yhe? lols.no offence =P

can't tell ya de reasons for my misery.......

ZaI

2006-08-29T18:44:00.000+08:00

today quite heng lah, tot muai phone got stolen lols but found out it was all along in my bag hahahx.....guess tads how life juz is bah.......finding for sumthing u always wanted but in de end all the while it was right dere, right in front of you.. hahax....searching for de truth when it was you who were too blind to see it before yar eh....

but... life isn't full of promises eh....hahax......knowing how to let go and go on........but i guess i aint realli going anywhere bahx haix....=(

behind ur eyes i noe u'r lying...
spending de last daez of silence...

zaI

2006-08-28T21:28:00.000+08:00

another boring dae lah......nth much juz pon de crap tution again =P yhe....sad ddint plae bball coz no pe shirt sianx... saw mr goh punish de other boyzz wearing uniform to plae lols....dunno wad crap reason is that......does attire matters in playing sportzzz....haix...dunno wad crap logic lai derxx XD den need sign card for cher's dae for jef goh,s.quay, and de wang jiunn lah...wrote some fanni stuff lah lols....also dunno wad i writing =)

few more daes is 'cher dae liaow.....been quite awhile since i went back to pcps last time been there was during nat'nl dae lah....but cldnt go in coz of the supit dumb security guard......hope can make it on wed or thurs bahx...at most climb over de wall go in lorsss =X

cam across yet another song by snow patrol lols....i think de songs are nice =)....

snow patrol-chasing cars

We'll do it all

Everything On our own

We don't need

Anything

Or anyone

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know

How to say

How I feel

Those three words

Are said too much

They're not enough

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time

Chasing cars

Around our heads

I need your grace

To remind me

To find my own

If I lay here

If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told

Before we get too old

Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am All that I ever was

Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where

Confused about how as well

Just know that these things will never change for us at all....

If I lay here

If I just lay here

Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

nice tunezzz. =) rawkzz lor

i dun wanna run away...

zAi

2006-08-27T19:21:00.000+08:00

lols....been quite some time i had time ta blog huhx? lols....well whished i 4get wad happened all these whil bah......well lets tok just about todae bah.......

hmz....my sistar bought me a watch for me b'dae =X well actualli not her lah she, bro and mum buy der lah hahax...anw better den having nth =X hhaax....black black der watch veri nice der leh lols...well beside tad.....hmz... nth much le slept whole dae until 6.30 like tad lols....tot was mondae alreadi but when i got back to my senses it was still sundae lors...hhaax maybe coz of de flu medcine lah...stupid flu bug me for 3 days liao.......dunne which asshole(opps!) spread to me =X
hauhx...maybe also coz ytd did body building....must train my arms liao now going 15 year old need do de stupid pull up which is a nightmare =P i'm weak =(...must tell myself from 2dae onwards everidae must train lors...hope next year can do alot more =) i think tad'll be my wish bah XD dun think about anything else le....will just complicate stuffs up =))

yhe just came across de nice song hahax hope u guy go listen ta it....

How To Be Dead-snow patrol

Please don't go crazy, if I tell you the truth

No you don't know what happened

And you never will if

You don't listen to me while

I talk to the wall

This blanket is freezing, it's been out in the hall

Where you've had me for hours

Till I'm sure what I want

But darling

I want the same thing that

I wanted before

So sweetheart tell me what's up I won't stop no way

Please keep your hands down

And stop raising your voice

It's hardly what I'd be doing if you gave me a choice

It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime

So just say yes or noWhy can't you shoulder the blame

Coz both my shoulders are heavy

From the weight of us both

You're a big boy now so let's not talk about growth

You've not heard a single word I have said...

Oh, my GodPlease take it easy it can't all be my fault

I haven't made half the mistakes

That you've listed so far

Oh baby let me explain somethingIt's all down to drugs

At least I remember taking the and not a lot else

It seems I've stepped over lines

You've drawn again and again

But if the ecstacy's in the wit is definitely out

Dr. Jekyll is wrestling Hyde for my pride

its true i had a dream,

that i was dying & crying

tad i wont be able to see u forever again....

n tad it all ends here with a bullet through my heart.

zAI

2006-08-23T09:07:00.000+08:00

Stupid Detention.......haix..

life tads biitter & sweet.....

zAi

2006-08-14T08:28:00.000+08:00

its beene quite long since i've blog came back to blogged again.... since sum1 sae its so dead hahax... well....coz got many post-exam stuff to do lah....so mani dae neba touch my computer liawo.....maple knt plae some more might as well dun plae anymore XD.....sianz....

saturdae went for my brother graduation thingy....den go take a family photo....yhe so went out whole dae neba went home...haix...life guess is back to normal againn le bah........ken do anything i wan finallie le bah....

come back to blog again when habe time bahx...hope this lwont make this blog sooo dead liao =X

zAi

2006-08-09T08:36:00.000+08:00

llols....happi NDP XD....hmz...ytd ddint blog coz whole dae dm tired went home neba bath sleep liaoz XD....stink up my bed =X....

well, er ytd went to mani places ye....but morning got ndp lah....lols stood dere for dunno how long.....and btw...i screwed up =(... well anw....den j.ling asked me whether wan go watch movie den i sae dun wan coz need go pri schl wib w.hong... well in de end went dere at 1 plus der soopid security guard sae knt go in wtf....at least the front gate one better lah tok to us nicely....tried to sneak in by back gate....den this time the other guard siao one.....scream at us =(. den in de end cldnt go in see teachers lor....nvm bah teachers dae den go back......sad =(

after tad we cldnt think of anywhere to go...den we went find li yuan and watched "click" at jubilee....yhe b4 tad went to arcade..........(thx li yuan for lending me ur clothes....even though in de end we got kicked out of de place together coz of de word ncc land =X.......stoopid staff hahax...) well at least other ppl more hiong wear full schl uniform go in hahax....maybe tads why dey started to spot-check bahx....crapx....
after de movie ended went to wu hong house plae lorx...den went to see fireworks....so stuffy der...sian...well at least didi and hong got some nice pics of de fireworks lah...(send me pls... XD)

lols and well when it all ended ermm...sumthing happened on de wae back which involves teng lah lols........so fanni hahahx.....

in de end got home late but ddint get scoldded =)heng zzz yhe and er.....i jus found out de world champ basketball team coming our schll to plae 2morrow lolx..who wanna go leh.....=X

living as if i was dying at your doorstep..........

zAi....

2006-08-07T09:15:00.000+08:00

yayz....CT just finallie ended liaowx....hahax wth, who cares about de result hhahax......so mani things wanna do after CT siax....watch movie, go out plae, buy presents blah blh blah......haix but 2morrow still got ndp sia.....think of it make me du lan liao......dunno need stand dere how long lehx...but at least 2morrow go lotsa things to do bah.......=)

lols.and joshua.G got sunburnt also hahax......sae he went kayaking on sat so gd....haix..i wan also leh.......now his face so red hahx....

anw...my big brother sae kaira gong his ex-pri schl fren lols its like how mani years ago le??....15 years?? lols...i think he anyhow kok one......=X......the whole world also his frenx lah lols....

k write until here bahx......welll it's like onli 9.24am in school...might update sumtime again later bahx...

i know how it feels....

zAi- probLeMaTic

2006-08-06T13:30:00.000+08:00

haix....haben been blogging daily coa of CT...now going end liao might as well blog =X...bio 2morrow, wad de heck........guess i gonna juz scrap through it just like de rest of the subjects...

this week was quite bad bahx?mondae mr ling come find me coz i ddint go fer ndp rehearsal haix.....den sae dun dissapoint him again....=( but at least i went for fridaes' last rehearsal =) den after tad trainining plaed bball until quite late got scolded...blah blah blah..

sianzz...now so mani ppl angry wiht me wth.....my brother,mr frenx... haix den ytd de chinese teacher( Mu Lao Shi) see me come in late for class after 10min break like buay song like tad den suan me.....wth.......whole week was very tired been sleeping in class lately again....like half sleep, half awake.....

but after tad plaed bball and soccer for solid 4 hrs lah......den tio abit sunburnt......at least tad kept me awake....=) oh yhe........and i got rammed by qy while being de goalkeeper =X...chested tad ram from him....ouch... nvm, at least i felt how it was like being a man of steel XD hhax...( no wonder no on be goalkeeper =X)

hmzzz....perhaps ytd too tired le bah missed out de fireworks and went for dinner somewhere in boon lay to celebrate my brother and sister b'dae together since theirs on 2 & 19 august mah.......haix....still dunno wad present to buy for dem........perhaps tad why my brother keep daoing me......=(

tuesdae might wanna go watch movie after ndp parade....any1 wan go??? =X...

Waking up from my dream,
To find i am all alone.......

Problem zAi =[

2006-08-02T17:27:00.000+08:00

Been 3 daes since i blog again =( 4got wad happened on mondae le....guess nth much happened tad dae......erm ytd eh......xxx xx said i dm emo lols.......sian.....i guess i just need find some place where i can pour my heart out bah rather den keep it bottled up eh? guess wad tads blogs are for yah? at least to me lah...

so 2dae.......er....tad 'fren' suddenli started toking to me, j.w and andy.c after few daes of cold war~~~ lols nvm........maybe he nt angry wib us liao lols.....=) guess we are not pissing one anther off liaowx...=)

During assembly, got pissed by anther fren again haix......keep slapping me and w.m. fer dunno wad reason......get pissed den gave him a punch in de face =(......haix....gets me on my nerves........

write until here bah.......still got common test need study u noe?? need get some rest ZzZzzz....den go barber later....

i wan u to bleed
and see how it feels...........
- -
give more than u take......
and smile through it all ....

zAi

2006-07-30T18:28:00.000+08:00

Nick Lachey-'What's left of me'

Watch my life,

Pass me by,

In the rear view mirror

Pictures frozen in time

Are becoming clearer

I don't wanna waste another day

Stuck in the shadow of my mistakes

Yeah...

Cause I want you,

And I feel you,

Crawling underneath my skin

Like a hunger,

Like a burning,

To find a place

I've never been

Now I'm broken,

And I'm faded,

I'm half the man

I thought I would be:

But you can have what's left of me

I've been dying inside,

Little by little,

No where to go,

But going out of my mindIn endless circles,

Running from my self until,

You gave me a reason for standing still

It's falling faster,

Barely breathing,

Give me something,

To believe inTell me:

It's not all in my head

Take what's left

Of this man

Make me whole

Once again

I've been dying inside you see

I'm going out of my mind

Out of my mind

I'm just running in circles all the time

Will you take what's left

Will you take what's left of me?

Just running in circles in my mind

Will you take what's left

Will you take what's left of me?

veri nice song....go listen to it bah......

let me take all de burden on my shoulderzz

2006-07-30T17:49:00.000+08:00

Hiz ddint blog ytd, how can i 4get my gddy gddy blog haix.....maybe coz bzy lately yhe? some ****ing testsss coming up......hmm...let me recall wad happened during these couples of daez bah >.<.........thinking......>.< oh....so yah been pissed off by few frens yah? so basically we are pissing each other off......if he's reading this blog i hope he noes it is him........weell he strted it 1st....=X.....tok to him nicely ...he bites back haix......nvm 4get about tad...

well er ytd hmzzz...5.30 woke up to go schl plae bball yhe but ddint see j.w.
so he owed me a slap as promised=D coz he promised to plae at 6.30....
yhe den got quay remedial 7 to 8 and den de blah blah blah chinese enrichment ....yawnz.... until 10 den went plae bbal till 12 with k.a. well i totally sucked juz like k.a said ( made me dm du lan).....dunno wadz wrong with me lately, dunch feel like myself....(seemed like watching a silent movie thorugh sum1 else's eyes......yepzz tad how i felt)......so got 2 ajc old boy come ytd plae bball with us lah think one of them was from ex-ncc air der senior den the other guy.....errr....never see b4....but will rmb him for ever.....coz he itchy hand scratch my elbow...wth.... now got 2 nice hole at near my elbow dere..... den after bball finish went back home.....(trying to be a gdboi mah...den do wad all gdbois will do........)

well fer 2dae,sundae yah?erm....can sae i stoned whole dae at home bah......sleeping and mugging for dunno wad **** sake.....But 2dae special....2dae is de pig brother's of mine BirthDAy!!! yAY!!! HApPIGGG PIgG' dae GORx !!!!! hahax....=D later celebrate wib him......

so its like 14 more hours till english test and i'm still slacking.......o welll wad the heck.... might as well pack my bag and go sleep bah....too tired liawox =X

can't keep my eyes off yar.......

zAi gOodB0i.....

2006-07-28T17:49:00.000+08:00

haix crap.....so mani frenx in trouble now haix......wth.......wad shldd i do???=( ws and zy in trouble sianx......realli dm vexed now sia........cant sleep den in de end go schl sleep during lessons and got caught by goh.h.m during chinese lesson......wthell is wrong???

Haix during quay lesson phy lesson i think i pissed him off coz anhw change sit sae wad sit marry-go-round......den i damn kp......den he strted to scold me den scold de class den scold the ppl who ddint go fer his phy remedial remedial ytd =( ....all my bl00dy fault....make him angry 1st....haix..and den when he asked why de 4 ppl y never come ytd remedial.......dey sae dey dunno......den he sae he veri upset lorx.....haix .......well 1st time see him so angry until like tad......perhaps he is realli a gd teacher bah......resposible........well i think he almost cried lah......den whole class diam diam................haix.........coz all saw de reflection in his eyes lor.......and this morning got screwed by pang fer not brining geog wrkbks.....sian.....

shaun also pang seh me wth.......last minute back out on me.......i go in toilet come out dey all gone....pissed sia.......hate this........has been happening to mani times le bah...=(........used to it liaow....pang sehyers =X

The scars of broken trusts,
we know how this ends-----nothingless.....

won't care no more zAi

2006-07-27T21:16:00.000+08:00

hiz againx....=)

2dae kinda 4got all mr troubles fer a while liaow.......reach schl den heard news of police coming to schl......haix...knew sumthing like this would happen todae after wad he did ytd...heard he got suspended=(....haix....hope he is still ok bahx...all those pri schl boys fault lor....hai si him... craps.......

2dae is boring.........as usual.....sleeping walking the entire day....as usual.....den after recess kinda had an itch to go ji xiao meng wei,kimmy and Roy lors...hhaax...yhe so sat beside kim and saw he scolding meng wei one another as usual hahx...so fannix....felt bo liao den threw some pieces of tissue one Roy...yah i noe its lame but cant help it......den whole chinese lesson was toking kok again......nth beta to do den plae wib my wallet =(

so theres like 2 tests 2dae instead of 4....lols.. amaths and chinese test both canceled yayx!!=D
but hell....need stay back tilll 7pm coz of the soopid chinese enrichment course and quay quay physics remedial..den meng wei whole dae making funni noises den joined in the fun with him lors....=(

Sian...still dont know wads going in my mind rite nowx...i think i'm changing ...dunno for better or worse lehx...but either way.....life still goes on i guess....And yah...tests are like just a few days away.......gotta study lah horx? evri1 work hard bah...

After common test den go siao bahx.....=(
Self COntrol!!! >.< ( well at least i am trying to......)

Fading friendships,
troubled hearts....

zAi Un4-giVen

2006-07-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

Some Where In Between-Lifehouse

I can't meet Losing sleep over this

No I can't And now I cannot stop pacing

Give me a few hours I'll have this all sorted out

If my mind would just stop racing

Cause I cannot stand still I can be this unsturdy

This cannot be happening

This is over my head But underneath my feet

Cause by tomoroow morning I'll have this thing beat

And everything will be back to the way that it was

I wish that it was just that easy

Cause I'm waiting for tonight

Been waiting for tomoroow

I'm somewhere in between

What is real Just a dream

Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in

Dont be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again

I don't want to run away from this I know that I just don't need this

Cause I cannot stand still I can be this unsturdy

This cannot be happening

Cause I'm waiting for tonight Been waiting for tomorrow

And I'm somewhere in between

What is real Just a dream

What is real just a dream ....

guess this is the right song that paints the picture of wad i am feeling ritex now =(

2006-07-26T18:18:00.000+08:00

Haix...reached home at 5 plus 2dae....tio nagged by my mum...so many things happened 2dae sia dunno where to begin....wait let me think back again =X hmmz...well strt off with this morning bah...got de stupid mass chinese reading dunno wad sh*t use for and whole day felt like sleeping...so i sat beside meng wei thinking i could bully him for fun=X lols so in de end edn up scolding each other hahax..laughing all de way...den both of us suddenly invented a new word mama****er lols.....den kept scolding each other that the whole day.....

yheps.....den about end scholl tad time....during CT Quay quay came in to give us a 40 min lecture that the class lacking schooll spirit just coz no one going for the chinese drama thingy...nag and nag until eat into assmebly time...den when he asked me why i neva buy tickets i say i realli dunno got the drama thingy wad...(coz i was too bzy sleeping all these while during assemblies...) den he say: So U going lah? and i was like wad the hell....crap....make me XIA BU LIAO TAI.......den no choice must agree lors.... Haix in the end we became de last class to go fer assembly...which was all abt some nonsence thingy ( cant rmb coz i was still sleeping....) when finally end liao we got to be de last one to leave de hall coz of some stupid reason tad we were late fer assembly..wth...=(

Yhe den quay quay saw me sleeping came over ask me if i ok....and i was damn diaox....sae i sleepping like panda..... wt*, !@#%%$#@!!! lols... sian... so du llan after schl went plae bball in schl court.......got alot ppl yah? 3-9,3-3, 3-4and 3-6 der....(3-9 ppl own liao lah if got interclass basketball competition...gg liaow XD)

And yhe lor......den after tad accidentally injure my knee when i tried to block Hao Ze lah...still so pain until now siax...realised cant plae properly 2dae sia.....sad....=(

den suddenly zy cracked larghx, scolded de pri bois who took our bball go plae....i tio shocked after seeing wad he did lah haix, damn scary.... ddint noe he so fierce.......den everyone like no mood plae liao after tad incident...
Guess evryone will crack sumdae...hope zy cools off bahx...relax dude...=)

2morow got stupid chem test, wish every one luck barghx.....

where'd you go...... i miss you so.....
seems like its been forever,..........since you'd been gone....
zAi=(

2006-07-25T18:15:00.000+08:00

Better 2dae le barhx...perhaps coz after last nite.....went out until 10.30pm and slept at 12.30am XD....saw her again and felt much better after tad.......all de troubles gone liawox.....

well 2dae Ming han burnt his hand during bio spa lols......broke the beaker and scared the hell outta me & i almost jumped outa my seat lols... hope he recovers quick quick bahx...see him quite in pain like tad, but see him so fannix also feelt like laughing lols.....

Sian....den teng dey all pang seh.....sae wad cancel group study at AMK library,cant blame dem also haix dey got de stupid chinese enrichment course,i understand =X. after tad wanted to plae bball but yang qing dey all leftx so earli...sianx......

.....wtf sia........haix in de end need come home early.....hate coming back home sia but still need come back in the end...=(
perhaps latar go jog around estate again at nite time yar? maybe....need some fresh air.....tad mighta cool my thoughts off for a while.

seemed to have changed alot this few days, dunno is it rebellious or wad but i suddenly knt concentrate in anything liawox... i guess this saddness in me cant seem to go away le yar?
Just realised i keep sleeping in lessons, and when i am awake i would only stone dere...staring at empty spots for no reasons..

so much troubles siax...wished i had lived better off in another world...

OnE bY OnE dEy bAckeD out oN Me,
tHe people who I call frenx =(

zAI =(

2006-07-24T10:03:00.000+08:00

All things seem to be very grey to me today.....=( its double maths period now as i write this post and i cant seem to concentrate anymore... LOLs Mrs Pang threatened us that she will deduct one mark for every late assignment that we passed up hahax....sian i guess all the geog students feeling stressed liaox hahax....( I din't do at all =X)

Well i finally cracked today.....it all started when i got back my bio class test paper and looking at it i almost wanted to crush it up.....haix...no matter how i study still so jia lat siax...

Yhepx....and den this chain of thoughts started to strike me right after that and realli made me damn sad todae...cannot concentrate...the recent chain of events seem to have changed me much...... i juz found out my maths tutor dun wan teach me anymore, coz he completely given up on me......haix.......seems like every1 has given up on me.........i'm still thinking about it until now...
And i still rememberd tad time how my mum knt take it until she angry and zam my toes witha alarm clock lols......i think i might be just a problem kid........

Can't take it anymore, need to put up with those attitudes my frenx showing me that realli pisses me off.....****....

Cant seem to be as strong as i used to be, i thought all these while i was...=( and for no reason i swore i almost wanted to cry it out loud.....dmn seems to be the 1st time i realli get upset until like tad....haix...even ppl sae i veri bei guan =x

I guess its all up to myself le barghx.......feels much better after writing all out sia....hopex this mood does't affect my life.....just wanna 4get alll my troubles........maybe after playing basketball during recess later i would feel much much better le yah? haix....

There's so much things i wana sae, but i guess its more than just words.....
there'sso much things i wan to 4get, but it just keeps coming back....

May god have mercy on my sOULZ...
TROUBLED...

2006-07-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

HIz guyz...

anther boring day siax.....went to some stupid chinese tuition den tok some kok about getting ur first million dollar and how u are going to spent it...

teacher:" Eh you, wad would u use it for..."
me :" erm... i would use it for charity..."
diaox....i think i was trying to zuo ge hao ren... lols

and i was like **** wad am i toking about???, money keep for urself lah where got ppl so stupid give away free Money... lamez.Ai yah anw....where got million dollar drop from sky one.......stupid teacher.....stupid lesson.....spend 1 1/2 hr of toking rubbish.....bloddy waste of my time.... XD

....sumthing seems to be getting into my head lately, i dunno wad i shld do siax...
Whole bloody lesson kenot concentrate......keep thinking abot the girl sitting behind me =Xlols....
well at least tue going to AMk library to study with teng they all barghx...everyone wan crashcourse for the exam liaows XD......

GD Luck TO YOu ALl FEr The COmmING Exams.........YaYYY!!!!!

2006-07-22T16:39:00.000+08:00

Lols set up this blog all thnks to teng wee XD Thank you thank you pal!! NExt time write more post let u read okayz??? NO need be so sian next time liaox XD